The Fog of Forgetfulness

This past week my mom celebrated her 60th birthday! It’s a big one and we missed it. We missed the party and the fun, the planning and surprises that come with a 60th birthday celebration. It is not often that we miss home but this past weekend brought one of those days. And on those days things get a bit foggy on why we are halfway around the world, living in a different culture missing family moments.

Saturday morning Mike planned to return to the farm for half a day and I found myself a little depressed that I was going to be home alone. The boys had caught up on their school, next week planned and our online business emails had been returned and project boards reviewed and updated. I was caught off guard he was going so maybe that is why all of a sudden I felt ALONE.

He knew it…he texted me from the kitchen and said “you wanna come?” So I got ready for the day and joined him and we made it a day of fried chicken, supply purchases and work day at the aquaponics farm.

As we were driving to the farm we pass a road that gives INCREDIBLE views and we have stopped and taken pictures of it because it is so stunning. But today…you can’t see a thing! (BLOG IMAGE actual view from Saturday) There are so many clouds/fog that you would not even know there was something stunning there. It was then that God reminded me of the Fog of Forgetfulness.

Forgetfulness: characterized by negligent failure to remember

We have some BIG vision for the Philippines, for families and for the farming community locally. The farm is growing, the local university has been out twice to view and students have come and been amazed. Traction is starting to pick up and we have no idea what we are going to be doing with this farm but we can tell it is going to become something larger than we could have ever imagined.

In the midst of this big vision and activity, we still have the daily life. The cultural challenges and misunderstandings that come with working with our friends and workers on a daily basis. We have the daily routine of school and work that repeats itself just like many of you at home. We miss big moments at home with family and friends, and the upcoming Christmas holidays are coming fast…. Do I share all these things for pity? Far from it. I share it because we all have the daily life. The daily, common life that takes it’s toll and sometimes we look up and the fog of forgetfulness has rolled in.

  • What is the purpose of this thing?
  • How is this vision suppose to come to pass?
  • Is anything we are doing making a difference?

Of course, I have all the answers to the above! But there are moments when we experience a “negligent failure to remember”

As I sit and write this I see that we too forget all too soon what God has done for us and what he has spoken to us. Our days are not always amazing and incredible. Teenagers are pushing, the culture can be infuriating and hard to understand, loneliness is real when we are so far away from everything and everyone familiar and even your favorite food is nowhere to be found. Big things, little things…all these THINGS can cause the fog of forgetfulness to move in and we find ourselves surrounded and unsure.

Our secret weapon that melts the fog? Remembering. Remembering with thankful hearts the past, praising in the present and meditating on the promises of what’s to come.

“Praise the Lord, I tell myself, and never forget the good things He does for me.” (Ps 103:2)

“I will give thanks to the Lord with my whole heart; I will recount all of your wonderful deeds”  (Psalm 9:1)

“I will ponder all your work, and meditate on your mighty deeds” (Psalm 77:12)

We must not forget. It is a purposeful action – remembering. And it is one of my key’s to having the Son break the fog so I can see the amazing and stunning views once again. God has done great things, I know this all to well and he has great plans for us all. Those quiet moments of remembering and trust set us up to watch the fog roll out and as our eyes behold what we knew was there we take a big sigh and know that He has us, He has not forgotten us and He is with us.